Fell on the bricked road of Jalan Changkat here in Kuala Lumpur with a heavy head is not gentle to my butt but after countless bottles of Tiger, my body just couldnt respond well to my mind, if my mind is working that is. Suddenly, thoughts of Angelica came into my mind, the moments we spent together on that little island called Perhentian Island. Due to its weird name, I couldnt forget my experience there with Angelica, especially when we saw two turles swimming side by side as if they are a couple. We looked at each other almost immediately and hugged tightly before we kissed to this very wonderful sighting with the sunset as our backdrop.
Our seven days trip there was the best times of my life with the perfect company, the perfect surroundings, and of course, the perfect mind set as well. However, it did not mark the beginning of our love but it marked the end of Angelica's life. As Angelica initiated the trip, I found out that she was diagnosed with breast cancer when we got back to Italy. She wanted the trip to be a last moment for us, she didnt want to have any regrets before she goes back to the arms of God. Little did I know about her sickness, she smiled at me when I found out what was happening and told me this, "Randal, its okay, I will be fine. Even if I am gone, you will still remember the times we had, will you?". All I can do is just let those tears flow down my cheeks as I look at her, she wiped my tears away with her tender touch and gave me a smile that I will never forget.
Now, I am back to the island to slowly gather pieces of our memories, to pick up what we have left behind, and to cherish what this wonderful island left for me. I couldnt hold back anymore when I was checked into The Lodge and head towards the bar for a few beers to forget the pain of losing the love of my life, Angelica. Her every actions, smiles, touches, and her very soothing voice, I couldnt believe that all these have been taken away from me. As I down my beers, the more I thought of her. I could feel the tear in my heart, feeling helpless and breathless, tears fell off my cheek once again but this time, Angelica is not here to wipe it away.
My love for her can never be explain in just words, but my memories could. Everytime I thought of Angelica, my heart would beat with serenity as if she is here with me, in my heart. I could feel her embracement whenever I closes my eyes. I never knew how much she meant to me until this very day where everything doesnt seems possible anymore.
Today, I stood right infront of her grave praying for her wellbeing when she is in the arms of God. I promise her that one day, I will be there with her, to love her, to embrace her, like I never did before. For our love that will never perish.
